Meh, I still kinda hate ace but not really. Is it really worth my mental health to worry about someone who doesn't text or call me? I don't really care anymore. I still love ace as a friend but I've found people who love me. They've shown me that I don't have to put up with this shit and I'm not going to. I haven't really been worried about it. I've been in contact with one of our mutual friends though. I don't want to cut her off or end out friendship because she's absolutely amazing and I love her so much. I don't think not wanting to be in contact with ace is enough for me to get rid of this friend.
This was unfinished. I let is marinate in my drafts for a few months while I got my shit together. Ace isn't worth my mental health. I wasted almost 3 years of my life holding on to someone who could care less for me. I watched them SH on FaceTime because "we're that close" I was nothing more that a safe space fire them. A therapist. How fun, right? I gave up on trying for people who won't try for me. So, I'm clearing my drafts and my mind. I'm sad that I lost someone I cared for for so long but I'm not sad that I'm fixing my mental health.