Nikko's point of view
If you ever thought somebody really hated you, you haven't yet seen Yuki when she discovered I fell in love with Hoshi - Yuki's brother.
No okay, I'm just kidding, now really. It's typical for Yuki to show more emotions than necessary, and this was the way she showed shock. It's funny, cuz I know she's not actually mad, she just decided to again let herself be impulsive.
After a few more times of being lectured about how dating her relative is wrong for society, economy and in any other way possible I couldn't hold it anymore, and a scoff slipped out of my mouth. I quickly put on a straight face again, but Yuki can't hold back either. Her lips curl into a suppressed smile, so she grabs me by my arm and starts pushing me out of the bathroom.
"Jesus, just go!" she says sarcastically, letting out some sort of snicker.
So when we finally return to the living room, Hoshi is near the front door, already putting on his shoes. He turns his head towards us, his expression unreadable. I can't sense whether he's still confused, or shy because of realising that Yuki knows about us. His lips slightly smile, as he looks over at her.
"I think it's time for me to leave" he states, slowly preparing to go. It's clear that he heard our muffled voices "arguing" in the bathroom, so he doesn't want to just awkwardly stand here and watch us fight. I think it's more than understandable, but I'm not sure if Yuki understands.
"Really? And don't you want to tell me something?" she shoots him a keen glare. Hoshi narrows his eyes back, and returns Yuki her spleen.
"Well why don't YOU tell me something Yuki? Where do you know Nikk from, huh?"
"Nikk? Already giving my best friend nicknames?"
"Hah, this is not a nickname. If I called him by his nickname I would call him Sunshine- wait what? Your best friend?" he looks over at me, who's blushing from being called my, now probably official, nickname. He keeps waiting for my answer, an inquiring expression on his face. I think I should say something now…
"Yeah, my best friend" Yuki looks at me as well.
Great, now all the eyes are on me and I don't even know what to say. Why are they dragging me into their sibling fight?
"Well, yeah… we have been talking since the day I moved in…" I just cautiously admit.
Hoshi looks away, Yuki looks away.
They both keep quiet, their eyes lingering on uncertain places, processing the relationships in this room. I noticed how they both behave differently, yet react the same. It's now clear that they have been raised in one family, even though they do not resemble each other a bit.
"I can see now that you guys are siblings" for this note I deserve a painful punch in my arm from Yuki and Hoshi's sharp glance.
"So that means…" Hoshi starts.
"You two are siblings," I say with certainty.
"Yuki is your best friend" Hoshi continues
"And you're Nikko's boyfriend" Yuki finishes.
When I hear the word boyfriend, I stop breathing for a while. I may have told Yuki too much about our relationship with Hoshi, about how I love him and how I want to marry him ASAP. The worst thing of this all is that Hoshi has no clue about it.
I have the right to panic now.
Hoshi on the other side looks me in the eyes, waiting for my glance, as if he was just trying to assure himself of the state of our relationship, not even realizing that his sister is not supposed to know about this. Just when I want to give him a hesitant look, his attention shifts to Yuki beside me.
"Wait- what do you mean I'm his boyfriend?" He asked, finally realizing.
"What do you mean what do I mean?"
"Why would you assume that we are a couple?"
Shit. That's obviously because I dished out every detail of our meetups to her. She mustn't say that!
"Nikko told me about the kis-" Her voice is abruptly being silenced by my pure improvisation - putting my fingers into her mouth.
What?
"What?!" Yuki mumbles with eligible confusion.
Why the fuck did I do that?! I myself ask. My cheeks are turning red from embarrassment, and I look down on my fingers with a face of disgust when I put them out of Yuki's mouth.
Hoshi' chuckles a bit at first, probably enjoying my awkwardness, then he says something I overhear due to my loud mind thinking of how to save this situation. Hoshi speaks to the ignorant me with a neat, silky tone in his voice: "You told her about the…"
Affectionate smile plays with his full lips, as I'm awkwardly wiping off any traces of saliva that are left on my fingers. Yuki's expression also softens a bit, a smile forming on her thin lips. And if I wasn't wasting my time, focusing on the unimportant, I could've noticed their pleasant smiles too.
"Bye" Hoshi waves at Yuki, who answers the same word enriched by a sweet chuckle.
Once I realised Hoshi was actually giving us goodbye, and the door just shut behind him, I exclaimed "Hoshi, wait!"
I quickly rushed to the front door in my socks only, and fortunately managed to catch him right before them. We stand in the corridor, and I shut the door behind me so Yuki can't hear us.
"Hoshi" I nervously place my trembling hand on his arm.
"Nikko…"
Calm down Nikko, just calm down... I comfort myself, and put the hand down, shifting my gaze down to the ground.
"I- I'm sorry that I talked with her about you" I say with an apologising tone, trying to calm Hoshi down. Except, there's nothing to calm down… He's not mad at me?
"Do you hear yourself?" He asks.
"What?" I ask, not believing my senses that he's so calm. I was petrified that he would not even want to talk to me after that.
"Do you hear yourself?" he repeats. "You're apologising for talking about our kiss with your best friend. Why would you apologise for that?" Hoshi's face still remains decorated with that same, dear smile from a minute ago that I didn't register then. I was so embarrassed before that I completely forgot to listen to his words, and so after he shut the door behind him, I was persuaded he was mad at me.
"Isn't it too personal to share? Aren't you mad?" I look up at him, my voice as uncertain and stuttered as my motion. My head twitches a bit, as I try to stay still.
Hoshi starts to speak gently, trying to calm my nervous demeanor down: "It's your first kiss. You must've been excited about it! It's okay to share such moments with your friends. As long as you're not describing an intimate moment detail by detail there's nothing wrong with it" He says, as his hand finely lingers on my warm face. "Why are you so nervous? Did you think I was angry?" He says softly, caressing my cheek.
When I don't answer for a while, he suddenly leans down, planting me a tiny kiss on the top of my head, into my messy hair. "I love you" he states peacefully."Bye, Sunshine!" Hoshi lets go of me, and with a few goodbye-waves of his hand disappears behind the corner. My eyes begin to water.
I'm standing in the middle of a long, dark corridor. Nothing on my feet, only socks. The walls are artificially illuminated with modern, white lights, and instead of a cold flooring, there's a gray carpet stretching from the beginning to the end. My eyes stay glued on one, uncertain place, silently releasing tears. Nothing but those heavy water drops can be heard falling on the colorless floor under me.
That one night walk in the park, keeping my problems to myself because of the conviction that he doesn't care about my feelings, and now this. Shaking with nervousness because I was persuaded he was mad at me.
Why until he assures me, I'm so scared of him?
A tear runs down to my lips, as I stand slouched in the middle of this dark corridor.
"He loves me…" I sob, my words almost inaudible.