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Kay sooooo.....😁
I took my relationship with Jewel serious after I had a meeting with Daniel 🫨. Yeas, we had mind blowing sex🥵 but it felt wrong. And that's like a red flag for me. Feeling bad being with another nigga. So I wanted to make things clear to myself and asked Daniel about his relationship. I didn't know if he was in one and I ha never asked either. He told me he was in one...going to like a year 😱😱...I almost slapped the fuck outta him cause he's not the cheating type and neither am I. I had a talk with myself in that moment and I just ended everything with him that day even though it hurt like hell 🔥.
I focused on Jewel from the on.
It's been 2 years and four months with Jewel already and I finally admit to myself that I'm actually falling in love. So I took Jewel serious, just him and no one else. That didn't mean that there weren't guys talking to me though 🤪. There was one especially 'Praise'. I still don't know how I got to know that mad person 😆. He likes me...and funny enough, I liked him too but it couldn't work cause of Jewel. Butttt....we did have a little fun 😊 and that was it. Being with Jewel was fun I won't lie. He knows me like the back of his hand ✋...he knows my quiet 🤐 but angry face, quiet 🤐 but sad face, even quiet 🤐 but horny face. He just knows me too damn well!! And I liked that about him. I honestly wasn't expecting 2 years being together. He was also shocked it took that long cause his last relationship made him rethink everything concerning being in a relationship and he wasn't ready for another one(I know this cause he told me😁). I didn't even mind if he was cheating cause I wasn't faithful either at first cause I wasn't taking him serious cause I was guarding my heart and I wasn't fully healed from the former pain so I'm not about to make it worse for me. But..all that changed the minute I saw Jewel was serious with me. I had a building trust in him so it was peaceful in 2022 for four months 🙂.
I found out he was cheating💔...yup..the one person I managed to leave a tiny opening in my heart for actually cheated on me. And worse he cheated when I decided to be faithful!!!😤😠😡. Motherfuc---🤬
So basically, I found out about a girl he has been seeing for God knows how long. She's happens to be the owner of the female items I found in his house 🏠..you know? The one where he lied his neighbor and bestie were the owners of the clothes? Yeah😮💨. Funny story actually, I was bored one day and was scrolling through Facebook, I was just admiring his handsomeness as I always do any man I'm dating💁...I saw cute pictures of him, then his bestie for her birthday then...a light skinned semi-pretty girl. It was also her birthday and he posted with literally a love letter 💌 not a fucking caption. And it's not one picture 🖼️, there were more birthday pictures on the same date..(i don't really remember cause why would I remember her birthday??). So, I was thinking 🤔 maybe it's nothing...but something kept telling me to check her profile and I did. Scrolling, scrolling...I stopped when I saw something shocking. There was this necklace with a capital letter 'D' as it's pendant she has on. I zoomed in and noticed Jewel also had that same necklace with the capital letter 'D'. I shrugged it off and continued scrolling, then...I saw a shirt 👕 he owned on her body...I was like..."nah..nah...no way" , and the background of the picture was in his family house, I mean i would know. Continued scrolling and I saw more clothing items he also puts on including bracelets🤨!! I knew shit was getting too real, I confirmed my suspicion as I saw a video she made in his house,in his sweater, with my green hat on😧. The comments didn't do him any justice as in every post she made, he would comment "My queen" and she would reply "Baby daddy" 🤮. I calmly sent him the screenshots I made with shaking hands, he didn't reply me. He didn't pick my calls 📞 either.
I was more than angry 😡...I couldn't believe it. I knew he was shocked as to how I found out cause he didn't reply my messages on Whatsapp for days making me even more angry than I already was. I blocked him everywhere and till wanting him to call somehow 🙂. I know he called after a few days cause 'TrueCaller App' would alert me that a blocked number tried to contact me. I unblocked him cause I needed an explanation for his bullshit. I know I wasn't supposed to even listen to what he'd say but I just wanted to...it hurt really bad 😔.
I went to see him after a few weeks of not speaking for him to explain. He has this stupid/cute way of keeping his face when he knows I'm mad as hell and he didn't fail to display it. Only this time, I didn't care about the face, I was really disappointed ☹️. He failed me. So..he told me a lot of crap I couldn't care less to remember and the only one I could remember cause of how stupid it is😅....is that he lacked clothing items so she assists him in that area😒. I just weak😮💨.
I acted like I understood and 'forgave' him. He agreed to stop commenting on her post or posting her. Said he would only post her on her birthday which I wasn't okay with but didn't say anything 🤐.
Little did I know I was creating something in me that should not exist.💔 I resented him from there. The Love wasn't all that anymore, for me at least. It broke me but I couldn't summon the courage to leave him.
I thought of getting back at him...but what good would that do?? So, I decided not to put all my egg s🥚 in one basket 🧺. I started talking to the other guys I stopped talking to cause of him . I went back to not taking him serious again..he wouldn't see a sign from me unless I wanted him to see one😊.
I felt some type of way towards him but weirdly though, I still loved him❤️🩹. Which was so fucking annoying cause...Why???!🫥