Growing up, I felt like I was living in a fog. Everything seemed distant, and I couldn't connect with anyone or anything. I did what others expected of me, but it felt empty. I didn't know what I wanted or how I felt. It was like I was just going through the motions of life without any purpose.
I always felt alone, even when people were around me. I didn't know how to express myself or what I truly wanted. It was a lonely and confusing time.
But when I met a girl with piercing eyes and mop curly hair, something changed. For the first time since I lived I felt my heart beat.
My life had been a void, devoid of emotions, devoid of passion. I didn't know I had a heart, didn't know what it felt like to truly live.
All I knew was my father's expectations, his instructions to follow without question. I was molded into a person who couldn't show weakness, who had to be ruthless and fearless.
I was a machine, programmed to survive in a world where strength was the only currency that mattered."
And for the first time in my life, I felt... something. My heart, long dormant, began to stir. I felt its beat, felt life pulsing through my veins. It was like waking up from a long, dark sleep.
Suddenly, the world wasn't just black and white, but a kaleidoscope of colors. I saw life in a new light, felt its beauty and its pain. Emily showed me that there was more to living than just existing."
Emily's presence made me feel alive, and I started to experience emotions I never knew I had. It was like waking up from a long sleep, and everything felt new and exciting.
I started to watch her with my brother with the aim of protecting her, But soon it turned into obsession, I will find myself desperate to know what was going on in her life.
I was here to see what she was up to, I got addicted to watching her just go about her day, her smile made me smile, and her sadness brought me agony.
Soon I grew tired of watching her from the shadows, and I couldn't tell you how happy I was when Alek suggested we sponsor her Education through college I eagerly agreed, I found myself unable to watch her suffer and I would go out of my way to make it easier for her.
Threatening people to employ her, bribing the dean, anything that could make he life easier, I know those will never make up for the pain. I have cost her, but I want to try to make her life easier.
I shouldn't have been excited about Cian meeting Emily, but on the bright side, it meant we no longer had to hide in the shadows and Iddy. I didn't have to love her from the dark.
I came up with the plan, that our men should scare
my princess and Alec like the night is shining ammo would save her. I know it's wrong of me, but I couldn't help it.
I could finally meet my princess and I was not letting anything get in my way, I know how dangerous the world we live in is, in the mafia world it either kill or be killed, but my princess had already met Cian, our biggest rival, and now there was no need for us, to stay in the shadows
The plan has started to play out, and I was bubbling with excitement, counting every passing second until my Queens arrival.
I sat in the shadows, watching everything, from the very moment our men surrounded her, I watched carefully to see if anyone would even touch her so I could cut off that hand.
I watched the small bastard swoop in and save the day, and then the entire ride home, the moment she stepped her feet through the door. It took everything for me not to race to her and hold her tight in my arms.
I watched my brother lead her to her room, wish her a good night and leave, I watched her as she fell asleep then I sneaked in and watched her in her sleep.
I snuck out of the room, knowing if I stayed any longer I would lose total control, desperate for my queen's attention, I called Stacy to come over in the morning.
I purposely fucked her throat in the hallway waiting for my queen to appear when she did, I pulled my dick from Stacy throat slowly, leaving my entire length out in the open longer than needed and I almost came from the way she looked at me her eyes blown with lust.
I then slowly tuck my dick into my pants, then sent Stacy away and made my way to my shocked princess, if I didn't step away I would have latched my mouth onto those perky nippiest of hers almost piercing that shirt, she was wearing Alek's shirt.
What I would give to have her wear mine, I started plotting on how I was going to steal the shirt.
Though I know that bastard would put up a fight, I know he knows, I would come for it, the selfish bastard is going to hide it.
She was unaware but I'm watching her, I see her thinking and thinking hard, what has my princess's knickers in a twist.
Then she lift her head up, her eyes fixed on Alek, what would I do to have her eyes on me, I want her to look at me please.
If I fall to my feet and beg her would she spare me a glance? I try to stop staring at her, what if she notices?
It's hurts me, she won't even look my way, I regret what I did. Since she saw me in the hallway she has refused to look at me or say a word to me.
I put on that show for her, I was desperate, I wanted to do anything to get her attention. I'm such a fool, she probably things I am some casanova.
But what else could I have done to get her attention without scaring her off, I was desperate and now I have messed it all up.
I need to try again asap, maybe I should kneel in front of her door step, make her breakfast in bed, lay at the foot of her bed, kiss her feet? What do I do?
I snuck into her room yesterday and took a piece of her hair as souvenir, and my princess smells as heavenly as always that sweet citrus and vanilla smell.
I would eat her out everyday without tire, I'm already hard as brick from the thought of eating her out now.
It takes everything from me now to get under those sheet and ravage her, however i opt for watching her as she sleeps.
I had to make my princess love me, I have spent the last ten years learning everything about her, from her like to her dislikes to her allergies.
How she lays to sleep, on what side she lays, how she snores lightly, her favorite hobbies, favorite movies, books, she loves chocolate, vanilla ice cream, she loves volley ball, she loves the rain and cloudy days, she hates the sun, I have learnt everything, everything about her.
I can't wait to cook her meals, I learnt to cook for her, I know she loves eating but she my love is a terrible cook.
I felt so jealous when she kissed Alek and he kissed her back, she was breathless looking at him like he was the center of her universe.
I wanted a kiss as well, I mean she is mine, so why won't she look my way, do I need to stab myself before I can get her attention.
I want her to look at me like that as well, it took everything from me not to fall on my knees as beg her to look at me, even if it is once.
For years I have been jacking off to her picture I had taken, seeing her in person stole my breath away finally my queen could claim me.
I was bubbling with excitement only for her to avoid me like I was horrendous, like poison and oh it broke my fragile heart.