Chapter 10
Vanessa's POV
"I don't mind leaving, I will leave your pack tomorrow, thanks for rescuing me" I managed to say to him almost in tears but I tried holding it back.
I can't let him know I am woofless. What if he views me as a nobody? What if he threw me away from his pack? It will be better leaving the pack and die with my secret than expose it to him, I just can't find myself doing that.
I watched as Gerald's eyes widened in surprise as he took a step back,maybe he felt I was hurt.
As he moved closer to me, his hands raised as he my shoulder calming me down.
I have fucked up! How would I have let him see my tears? Now he will take me to be weak, just the same way Alexander, Mira and Ariel knew my weakness and used it against me.
"Vanessa, calm down,I was just trying to explain how it works here but you know I can be of help to you" he said to me while he raised his hand gently to wipe my tears.
His touch sent shivers down my spine as the thought of how Alexander cleared my tears the day I was crying about not having a wolf yet.
Suddenly I beat Gerald's hand off my face, I hate it now! I hate to be used and won't allow myself to be used again. No!
"I'm… I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.." He paused as I placed my index finger on his lips.
"It's fine.. I just don't want a touch" I said to him as I brought down my hand from his lips where my eyes glance into his greenish eyes.
I have his soft and soothing voice ring on my head, I just have my inner self telling me about Alexander! His betrayal and his sudden hatred towards me.
"I'm not going to hurt you, I'm trying to protect you in this pack and no one will hurt you please stay" He spoke slowly, enunciating each word to me as he kept his stares at me, all I was hoping was to penetrate the fog of my anger but his calm face and greenish eyes kept sending cool nerves down of me.
I just kept blinking my eyes at him, I don't know what is wrong with me, I feel myself getting attracted to him yet I kept arguing my inner self. He is an Alpha and I am a wolf, not even an omega. Do I think he will find me attractive after knowing?
But I was beyond reason, that is why I have to keep it to myself, I can't let him know anything about that.
As his eyes kept glancing at mine, I wasn't sure what he wanted. Or did he want a kiss? Toor! I will never have that with him.
I watched him move closer to me, one part of me made to tell him to stop while my mouth kept restricting me to tell him.
I felt My heart pounding in my chest harder than before, and my senses heightened. Every sound, every movement, seemed amplified.
I felt like a cornered animal, ready to lash out at anything that came near. My breath came in short gasps, and my vision narrowed to a single focus: escape. As his lips move closer to me, now I understand what he is up to.
Wow! So the first day of seeing me all he wanted was my body! I'm in a bad state yet he wants to have it with me so he can throw me away like a dog he has used! I wasn't expecting this from Gerald.
"Leave me alone! How could you? So you're so cheap as an Alpha that you pull yourself low to kiss me? Toor! That was least what I expected from you" I snarled to him with anger already written on my face.
It was all over my voice, which even though it is low and menacing but sound mean.
I just got myself back, I have been lost and deceived by those eyes of him but not any longer.
That was how I let my guard down to Alexander and he used me.
Now my days are bleeding until I don't know I am still shocked and unbelievable I could be stabbed by people who I cared about.
"I'm sorry, Vanessa. I…. I wasn't trying to take advantage of you and I won't " he said to me as he stood up from the bed where he sat.
His words ripped from my throat as all I felt was just anger and calmness mixed together as it all fueled by desperation releasing fear as the result of both mixed feelings I have.
"I'll leave this pack, and you'll never see me again. I know you helped me but that doesn't warrant you to take advantage of me! Why!" I spat the words with anger.
What was he saying? If I had allowed him I know he would want to kiss me.
I had my eyes opened and watched his lips move closer to me while he kept his glance at me.
So what is he trying to claim now? That I was lying? That, that wasn't his intention? Shit! I had to leave because Marcus, his beta wolf, had done exactly this here.
Wait? Did he want me to be a sex slave? Or what is all happening here? Oh gosh! This is crazy and I can't leave with all this crazy attitude ! Kai!
I dared Gerald to try and stop me and I will make a huge cry out and get him exposed to his pack members that he tried raping me all because he saved me.
Gerald's expression changed from calm to concerned as he looked worried and his eyes left with agape on them.
He took another step back, giving me space with his head lowered.
"Vanessa, please, it wasn't what you think! How could I think of raping you? I can't force you into that" he said, his voice laced with urgency.
" Leaving this pack is not the best idea please. One thing is clear and I won't want you to argue that! You can't fight the rogues and omegas alone. They'll tear you apart. You're no match for them." His words were blunt, but his tone was gentle.
"I'd rather die trying,than stay here as a sex slave to you! " I spat, my eyes blazing with defiance. The thought of those creatures, of their cruel faces and snapping jaws, fueled my determination. I would not be their prey.
Gerald's expression softened, his eyes filled with compassion. "You're welcome here, Vanessa,and I will never make you a sex slave. Never" he said, his voice gentle. "I promise you'll be safe. We'll protect you." But his words fell on deaf ears. I wasn't interested in promises or protection. I was a survivor, and I would do whatever it took to protect myself.
"Let me go," I growled, my body tense, ready to spring. My muscles coiled, prepared to unleash their fury. Gerald hesitated, then nodded slowly.
"Fine," he said, "but know this: you're not just putting yourself at risk, you're putting others in harm's way too." His words hung in the air, a warning unheeded.
I didn't care. I just wanted out. I wanted to escape the pack, the rogues, and the constant threat of death. As Gerald turned to leave, I stopped him, my voice harsh.
"Wait!" The word cut through the silence like a knife.
He turned back, his eyes questioning, his expression cautious.
"You'll never tell anyone what I am, will you?" My eyes narrowed, my gaze piercing. I searched his face for any sign of deception, any hint of betrayal.
Gerald's expression was solemn, his eyes locked on mine. "I promise," he said, his voice firm. "Your secret is safe with me." His words were a vow, a promise sealed with a nod.
I studied him, searching for any crack in his resolve. But all I saw was sincerity.
"Good," I said finally, my voice still laced with venom. "Because if you betray me, I'll make sure you regret it." The threat hung in the air, a warning.
Gerald's eyes flashed with surprise, but he nodded. "I understand," he said, his voice calm.
I turned away, dismissing him. The door closed behind him with a soft click, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
As I stood there, I felt a mix of emotions: relief, fear, and determination. I would survive, no matter what. But Gerald's words echoed in my mind: "This pack has its own secrets and dangers." What did he mean?
I shook my head, focusing on my escape plan. I would leave tonight, under the cover of darkness. No one would stop me. Not even Gerald.
"Never mind I don't trust you any longer" I said to him with my hand crossed on my chest.
"Then let's make a deal!" He said walking away from the room.
What deal is he speaking about? or to make me a sex slave? he must be crazy if so!