Everytime I see the beautiful stars when I look up at the dead of night I see millions and billions of shining stars, I always wanted to reach out and grab one.
As I was in a daze staring at the bright lights in the night sky I heard my mother call out my name.
"Asta come inside, it's dangerous out there." She said with worry.
I was too focus on the shooting stars going through the sky to notice her worry words in the background. Sitting there on the grass filled with the sentation of prikles I just smiled as I looked above to the dark blue night.
When I closed my eyes I felt a slight pain sensation in my chest before I opened my eyes to see a different location. My mind went blank and I just looked at the white walls with gold flakes as pattern of stars around me. The light came from above that was shiny with gems and candles of a chandelier.
Where am I?
Before I could do anything else someone stormed in, she had bright blonde hair with facial features of a older women. Before I could say anything to her she hugged me and she wepted profusively, unable to do anything and very uncomfortable I hugged her back with unfamiliarity.
"We were so worried Crystalline! Don't scare us like that again!" She said with a pained expression on her face as she looked into my eyes.
I noticed the puffed eyes and the redden nose and looked to the side tryinng to act as if I knew who I was at the moment.
"Don't look away with such a pained expression, your father and I understood what you did was for us but we will not allow you to try killing yourself again." She said as she was trying to hold back more tears.
When she said thst I was honestly completely shocked but I couldn't show her that. So I tried to keep my eyes away from making contsct with hers. Unable to do anything at that moment I just sat there in silence trying to express painfulness.
"Sorry." I said as if I didn't mean it.
It seems like this girl was trying to die?"
I was confused on why but I didn't want to tell the poor lady that this girl was possibly already dead for me to become the owner of this new body.
I dazed off into my own thoughts when she started to nag me, it reminded me of my mother.
I had gave a pained and nervous expression and the lady noticed and misunderstood it. Then she started to hug me once more and cried harder. I could see the tears running down her face while hitting the white clothing on my shoulder.
I didn't know what to do at the moment so all I could do was hug her back. After a long pause she unlocked her arms around me and quickly ran out.
Still a but flustered from my situation I tried to move my legs, I felt nothing so I moved my covers to see that I was paralyzed. Before I could do anything else my head hurt and memories started to flood back.
I wish to die in peace, a fast and easy way. So my existence will no longer be a burden on my family, if only I could move. Why! Why me? Why do I have to be the one to be a burden? Why can't I just die already? Die!
I quickly moved my hands forwards my head trying to calm the pain and emotional distress before noticing my excellerating heartbeat.
How selfish of you.
I calmly pushed back the rush of memories before I grabbed the side of the bed to push my self over the edge. I looked around at my surroundings to see nothing I could use to move. I quickly looked back into the girl's memories to try finding a way I could move around the castle.
A wheel chair?
I looked for a bell by my bed and quickly called over a servant to bring me my wheelchair.
The servant ran to grab and place it by my bed and offered to help. I denyed the help and moved my heavy body onto the vehicle before moving the wheels towards the door.
Kinda reminds me of a kayake.
While moving throughout the castle it felt like a whole new world that I could explore. The walls were beautiful, it had white and gold patterns resembling the stars similar to my bedroom and the engravements felt like it was dancing around me. The ceiling was massive and the lights flickered like the flames felt my presence.
So beautiful, I have never seen a more beautiful place than this.
Moving slowly and admiring the view I saw the garden within view. The flowers ranging from blue to purple and many dofferent varities. I quickly realized my distraction of the environment and moved the wheels faster to the dining hall.
When I arrived I could smell the wonderful aroma. The fresh scent of wine and steak filled my nose and I could feel the drool falling.
I looked around the place to notice no one was there, only a single meal which seemed to be for me.
When I went to the table I switch the seats and cut the steak in small bits. I enjoyed the delicious yet sad meal.
Why is there no one here?
I questioned internally before finishing my me and getting back to my own bedroom. When I arrived I saw a doctor the women from before.
The women quickly led my over to my bed and told me it is okay and I should rest after taking my medicine.
I agreed in the way this girl would had in my memory and layed down and closed my eyes. Oddly enough I had fallen asleep
The stars are wonderful… even in my dreams they wrap themselves around my body as if to protect me…