Today is a new day, but for a specific reason, I'm already tired. I left home early by around 5am in order not to miss this 8 am class. Funny enough, even after leaving home by 6:30am, never have I been able to come before the lecturer, but surprisingly today and because there was no traffic in the road,I arrived and hour before class is about to start. I'm happy about it though, but another problem is where I will stay before class is opened.
" Us that not Adrianos?" I asked myself. It's been so long I've seen him and for some reason, I'm particularly happy seeing him today. What started as a friendly conversation between him and me in WhatsApp, resulted to me not being able to do without chatting with him in a day and every time I'm walking around the school, I've always found myself hoping to see him.
The first thing that drew me closer to him was the fact that unlike Adrian who is good at flirting with all types of girls,Adrianos is quite reserved. Even though,deep down I know I'll definitely get heartbroken,I still can't stop thinking about him.I've always thought I would never be able to fall in love with anybody else , except fair and handsome Adrian, but even though this guy was not the type of guy I will initially want his loyalty, trust, kindness and humility changed my thinking absolutely.
"Hi, Adrianos" I said and waved, trying hard to conceal my excitement." Hello" ,he replied without waving and clearly in haste.
For some minutes,I was shocked and embarrassed. All I could was bring out my phone and pretended I was looking at something. " Have I been tge one over thinking this? Am I being forward?" I asked myself, trying to hide how embarrassed I feel.
Somehow,deep in my heart,I know Adrianos is the right guy for any girl, but I'm definitely not the right girl for him. I'm not that reserved, beautiful and can not be compared together like other girls and act like a boy.
I knew from the start I was making a terrible mistake, but why must I be so unfortunate with love. I've always tried to stop thinking about how imperfect I am to him, but today I realised the deep truth.
I'm about to make the same mistake of causing myself pain again and the earlier I realised I need to move on and stop over thinking the better. I greeted him cheerfully, but why must he greeted me back as if he was embarrassed to let people see us together.
" Enough is enough, I'm done falling into this nonsense trap called love again" I said to myself and tried to prevent tears from falling, before anyone suspect something is wrong with me.