You can say I'm now a changed girl. I don't actually give a fuck about love anymore. Looking back at the past,I would never believe I could actually survive the trauma I went through. I don't really regret loving Adrian and even till now,I sometimes remember our past, but I merely smile over it now and try to forget it. After all,we are both doing well now. We are both in different schools now and I'm sure there are more prettier girls then.
As crazy in Love as I was in secondary school, I wasn't crazy enough to stop studying and just chase love and right now , I'm happy that I get to study my dream course kn my dream school.
I'm a medical student, but unfortunately I can't even heal my own emotional mood. I remember those days I thought I would never stop crying. Those sorrowful days that makes me blame myself for falling in love. I'm actually grateful to Adrian making me experience what love is,he took care of me well physically but not emotionally. Adrian was my motivator,my inspirator,my rival who made school hell for me my friend who was always there to support me ,my teacher who showed me the two sides of life my admirer and infact my everything. To be honest,a part of me still waits for me. " Is not that easy to forget your true love anyway" I thought to myself and shrugged.
Today is a new day and I don't want to start it with remembering the past and getting emotional. Steve is still my friend and we literally talk about everything. He has been disturbing me to have a video call with him, but there's no way I'm gonna allow him to see my ugly face!
" Hello pretty!" Steve said over the voice call. " Hi ugly!" I replied laughing. Earlier I had messaged Steve saying that I really wanted to talk to him. Honestly, University life hasn't been easy and me acting strong is just a facade to hide the fact that I'm very weak and can start crying over the smallest matters.
" So how have you been?"Steve asked, clearly concerned." Honestly, I'm tired. It's not easy at all here. I don't even know if I'll be able to survive all these" I answered, clearly tired. " It's okay,Just believe that you can do this. Don't worry,very soon it won't be as hard as you think" Steve said reassuringly. Somehow, talking with Steve about my problems makes my heart feels lighter. Right now, I'm struggling both emotionally, spiritually and physically and I really hope I'll be able to keep smiling when I'm around my coursemates, because honestly there's nothing to keep smiling about.
" So, where are you now? Are you inside the hostel?" Steve asked . " No I'm in school. I still have a lot to cover before going to sleep" I replied and sighed. " Okay,take good care of yourself and beware of those boys oh and don't allow them to trap you with any fake love" He said, almost shouting with concern.
" Trust me, there's nothing about love that I don't know and right now, I'm not even interested in any of them. They are not even that handsome to start with " I replied and smiled " one thing I'm most especially grateful to Adrian for is teaching me the greatest lesson about love ".