" Today is the last day you will be seeing me in your school" Adrian said to me. " No,it can't be possible! You're almost done with secondary school,so why go now? I asked shocked. I only came to Adrian to ask how was his result and motivate him ,incase he thinks he's not doing enough but this is certainly what I was expecting. " Adrian leaving? No that's not possible!" I said to myself.
" What's wrong?" Adrian asked after seeing how shocked I am. " " I'm just shocked. Can't you just persuade your parents?" I ask, hoping this is not real. " There's nothing I can really do? " He shrugged.
" But why didn't you tell me since? You're leaving tomorrow and you're just telling me or is it that you're happy that you're finally going?" I ask , suddenly angry. " Chill,I also don't want this and why do you look so angry and even more concerned than I am" Adrian replied laughing.
" I-I don't know " I said, trying to hide my face. God help me, I'm almost crying already because how can I ever live without Adrian by my side. Not that he has actually been by my side since all these years, but just seeing his face brings me comfort. " Are you crying?" Adrian asked in suprise.
" No,look,I believe that you will still help us resume for next session. There's no way you are leaving our school. If you go now,how many people will remain? " I asked trying to hide my tests.
" It's not as if I'm the only one in our class though and before I go,is there anything you want to tell me? He asked suddenly serious.
" I don't understand"I laughed, trying to escape from asking his question. "If only he knows how hard it was in hiding my feelings for him " I thought to myself and sighed silently.
" I mean,is there anything bothering you that you feel you should jet me know? " He asked again, waiting patiently for my response . This is an opportunity to confess my feelings and know if this guy likes me back, but how about the promise that I will never date a guy in secondary school? What if he simply accepts me because I like him and break my heart later? What if he thinks I've been friends with him and his girlfriend just to win him over? Abd why can't even confess his feelings himself if he really likes me? Different questions comes running into my mind without me being able to proffer solutions to them.
I have always hoped throne say Adrian will notice me, but do I really want that to happen now? and is this the way I hoped my dream will come true? Adrian has hurt me a lot and even when I feel like my love for him will make me forget all his wrongdoings and atrocities,it kept coming back.
" So,do you want to share it with me before I go" Adrian asked me gently. " I don't really know for now" I replied and faked a smile on my face." Fine,when you're ready to share it with me, I'll e here" He said and smiled.
Me and Adrian loving each other is what I've always wanted, but when you have discipline, you need to make sacrifices. There's really nothing I can do for now and somehow I wish we can be together in the future, but can that happens when we don't even know how we both feel towards each other, but whatever will be ,will be even though,deep down I know I'll definitely regret today's lie.
" Bye,Adrian said and waved at me. " Take good care of yourself " I replied unable to accept the fact that he's leaving and quickly run away from the place to hide my tears. " Finally, finally...but I messed it up" I thought to myself and broke down in tears further.